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my mind was full about one word, jealousy. idk it was something like self correction, for me though. Everyone’s ever get jealous on others, even it’s mere little thing, moreover it was a big thing. but sometimes we never think twice what kind of jealousy we felt. That why do I jealous with my old pal who going abroad. It causes some question in my mind.

first, she could speak english, me? Actually i could.

second, she’s smart both academics and non-academics subject and i’m not even stupid for that.

And the last one, chances, does everyone have those chances right?

Yes,

but I tried to make it clear one by one to make myself understand.

i believe that i could speak english, but how fluent am I? how's my vocab and grammar's ability? it might be something considerable.and yet not that stupid for academic subject, but look at my worldwide knowledge, isn't it enough? no. and talking about the chances, although everyone have the same chance, actually I have to looking for those chances by efforts to make it mine, not even just sitting on a chair like fuck waiting for the chances come to me.

i couldn't abroad now, but sometime, i will. not now means i still have lots of time to preparing my self onwards.

don't get yourself jealous on others for no reason, and yet jealousy make us better by thinking twice

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